Navigating the Unseen Battles

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For years, I wrestled with the invisible weight of my past, grappling with the physical and emotional toll of childhood trauma. My experiences seemed to have a relentless grip on my soul. Even as a Minister of the Gospel—preaching, teaching, and praying for others—I still found myself spiraling into manic-like states (fight and flight) or deep depressive episodes (freeze and fawn), driven by the imprints my experiences left on my soul.

The common counsel to “just pray more,” “get into the Word,” or “put on the mind of Christ” felt like it only glossed over the broken places within me. I was driven by doing more, striving harder, all while lacking a true sense of self or understanding of who I was. Unconsciously, I was trying to prove my worth, believing that if I could just be “good enough,” I might finally feel God’s love.

From childhood, I struggled with health challenges, and in my religious community, these were often attributed to a lack of faith. This only deepened my sense of inner shame, leaving me feeling unworthy and broken.

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A Divine Encounter

I began to seek God for answers, and the scriptures seemed to open to me in new ways. I asked for divine encounters, and God met me in a profound and life-changing moment. He spoke:

“Let me be the One who whispers in your ear. Comfort, peace, and My presence are what I have to offer. My salvation, stability, and soundness are what I will give you. You don’t have to wonder if I am who I say I am—come and experience Me. I want to ease your mind. Let me whisper the love I have had for you since before the foundation of the world. For I have called you, and you are mine. Let me rock your world of confusion, despair, and regret, and replace it with peace. I will comfort you as you rest in My arms. Look into My eyes as I breathe new life into your emptiness. I will open your heart so you can follow closely after Me. Connect with Me, and trust that I will take you on the journey of a lifetime.”

No words can fully express what took place in that moment. I was awakened—consciously and intimately—to God’s presence in a way I had never known before. This encounter marked the beginning of a new path, one that led me to trauma training and a deeper understanding of my own healing. It unraveled my faulty ways of thinking, gave clarity to why I was the way I was, and allowed me to extend grace to myself as I began the healing process.

We are treasures in the earth, sent to re-present a story of divine significance as we triumph over trauma and reconnect with our true identity. As Scripture says, “We have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellency of the power may be of God, and not of us” (2 Corinthians 4:7).

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Living in a Dysregulated State

I know what it’s like to navigate life in a perpetual state of dysregulation, swinging between the clenched fists of fight (anxiety, poor decision-making, inner aggression) and the desperate plea of fawn (people-pleasing, codependency, repressed anger, poor boundaries). It was a daily battle—not just against external circumstances, but against the relentless echoes of the past etched into the very fabric of my being.

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The Mind-Body Struggle

Understanding the intricacies of the mind-body connection became paramount on my journey. The battle of the mind, with its ceaseless loop of memories and emotions, was deeply entwined with the echoes reverberating through my body. It demanded recognition, understanding, and a new way of being.

Knowledge as Empowerment

As I delved into the complexities of my journey, I discovered a profound truth: healing isn’t just about acknowledging what happened in the past. It’s about understanding how your brain and body processed those experiences, how they shape your perceptions in the present, and finding the tools to navigate and transcend the negative energy stored within.

The insights I gained became a guiding light, pulling me from the shadows and revealing that healing is not only possible—it is our birthright. It’s a journey of reclaiming wholeness, rediscovering your divine identity, and stepping into the freedom you were created for.

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Guiding Others Through Transformation

Now, as a Certified Trauma Support Specialist and Coach, I am committed to walking alongside others on their unique journeys of self-discovery and healing. If you’re ready to break free from the shackles of the past, to understand and empower your mind and body, I’m here to guide you.

Together, we’ll uncover the treasures within you—the truth of who you are, the strength you already possess, and the divine connection that makes healing not just possible, but inevitable.

Let’s embark on this transformative journey together.

Warm regards,
Chantay Miller
Certified Trauma Support Specialist and Coach